light yourself on fire

“Success is not a result of spontaneous combustion. You must set yourself on fire.”

— Arnold H. Glasgow

How do I light a fire under me? How do I get back to the fifteen projects on my to-do list that I started a year (three years) ago and haven't gotten back to? Or do I let them go, cut them, decide they are as done as they are ever going to be?

It's hot here. August can be brutal. I'm in tank tops most days, forgetting to put on some sort of bra. It feels exposing. Sloppy. Unheld. All of the fire dials are up to red, all of the parks say "no smoking!," the Berkeley hills caught on fire a few days ago and spread for acres. The dried out golden grass catches easily.

But I don't catch easily. Sometimes I wither. Sometimes I'm that obnoxious green that is so dense it's almost impossible to break it or rip it.

I keep waiting for someone else to set the fire. For deadlines, for some sort of external motivation that will 'make me' do this work. But it's not going to just happen. It's not flowing in the morphic fields waiting for me to step into it. It's me — I have to do it. I have to set myself on fire.

— Zed

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